With Dan’s birthday three days away, I’ve been thinking about Mom and Dan. I’ve been thinking about them a lot and two thoughts have occurred to me.
First, they have given me my new mantra: Not to worry; a good rain will take care of that. I’ll use it after the mantra I stole from “Miss Congeniality:” Dali Lama, Dali Lama, Dali Lama.
Last August, as I scattered their ashes, I was once again hit with the realization that cremains are not like fireplace ashes. When Dan was cremated, some of his ashes were set aside for me to place with Mom’s once she was gone. (Yes, her wishes, not Dan’s, but I don’t think he’d be upset. I don’t think he thought of the possibility.) The rest were scattered by his executor and friend, Harley. I wasn’t in Kansas City when it was done, so it didn’t occur to me that, unlike fireplace ash, cremains don’t just melt away. Continue reading
I was at the doctor’s office the other day, sitting in the waiting room and … you know … waiting. There were two men talking. One got up and went in for his appointment. The other gentleman started to talk to me.
As it turns out, this man graduated two years ahead of me. That means we both have the reunion coming up. That also means he graduated is Dan’s class. And, of course, he knew Dan. Quite well, actually. As he was called into the office, he asked me to tell Dan “hello” the next time I talk to him.
One of my fondest Christmas memories took place in my early teen years. The whole family was in my parents room watching TV one Christmas Eve. I kept hearing this noise in the next room. It sounded like we had a mouse. I mentioned it, but no one else had heard it.
A few minuets later, I heard it again. Again, no one heard it. The third time it happened, I got up to investigate. My brother Scott said he heard it and it was bats in the attic. Unlikely, I said. Bats hibernate in the winter. Even if there were any up there at this time of year, they would be asleep. I did what any self-respecting, bat-loving little sister would do. I demanded he prove it.
Scott, being certain I would chicken out, started to head to the attic stairs. Mom, being certain I wouldn’t chicken out, told Scott not to take me up there because I might get hurt.
I don’t know what was going on today, but the world conspired against my making the trip. Was that you?
By the time the computer was ready, it was almost 9:30. Then I went to get into the elevator but there was something wrong. I pressed the call button, heard the elevator arrive, but the doors didn’t open. I pressed two more times before the doors opened. I got in and the doors wouldn’t close. I pushed the button two more times and still nothing. At that point I got out. I was afraid the doors would close and the car wouldn’t go anywhere. Then I could spend all day trapped in an elevator!
I called my injured co-worker and she said that I should wait until Monday. The weather will be better; I’ll have the computer. I will also be able to leave earlier and maybe spend some time with her before her PT session and I have to turn around and drive back.
So let’s wash rinse and repeat for Monday. Okay, Danno?
Happy birthday again, my brother. I love you.
I wish you were here. I miss you every single day.
Please help me out today. I hate driving the Turnpike. I especially hate driving it in the rain. Add to that, it’s just over a week since A’ndrea had her accident while driving the Turnpike in the rain.
Mom is nervous and that’s making me nervous. There were problems with A’s laptop, so I wasn’t able to get it yesterday and have to wait until 8:00 to get that and leave. I’ve never driven Philly alone. But if I miss a turn, I do know how to do the “get off, turn around” thing and that never adds to my stress level. Funny, but needing to get it right the first time does. I guess that’s a little of my OCD kicking in.
Anyway, if you could just hang out with me today, I’d really appreciate it. I’ll watch my speed and you keep asshat drivers away from me, K?
Love you, bro. And I hope there’s a big party for you where you are. Happy birthday!